GRay aRea

I've been thinking a lot lately. I've been feeling a lot lately. When I'm not in my happy place, where is it that I go to? I never thought I'd be in between. Always aiming to be joyful. I never want to let that feeling go, why can't I just ride it out into forever?…

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Your bondage wasn’t meant for me

My black skin, my strong features, my curvy figure... who am I? My self-hate, my dysfunction, my empty pockets… who am I? What did you leave behind for me? Was this your goal? Am I the one to pick up the baton you handed over to me? I don’t want it. I don’t want what…

Will I ever Love Me?

If you're ever feeling low, just get out your laptop, hop on a computer, or a regular pen and pad will do and write until you feel better.

Forgiveness

Is it possible to truly forgive someone? Can we really come from a deep place of love that we are understanding of people and their dysfunctions? I don't think I'm there yet. It's not that I don't want to be, it's just that I haven't fully grown to engulf myself in pure love for those…

Overwhelmed

I didn't blog yesterday and I'm pretty upset about it. Have you ever felt like your life had to be together immediately? And if it isn't, everything will fall apart? I'm doing my best not to look at life that way, but I feel as though I have a lot on my plate. I know…

Gratitude

What are you thankful for? I remember not long ago (literally last month) being miserable and angry all the time. I never took the time out to appreciate the things that I had in my life. I'm talking about good and bad. I believe that when we are in a funk or depression we tend…

Residuals

When we say sorry does it take away the hurt and pain? Does it take away the after effects of our betrayal and disloyalty? Why is it that we are quick to apologize, but not as quick to look at the situation to learn and grow from it? I feel we are all in a…

Better days

Looking forward to better days, I know it sounds cliche. It's true though. I'm having better days. My days have become filled with happy positive thoughts. I feel uplifted, untouchable, joyful. I'm growing......... Am I? Who's standards am I measuring myself up against? Can I really take advice from someone who hasn't self reflected? Someone…

Close enough

When do we realize that some relationships just won't work. Is it when you start to break down and abuse one another verbally and perhaps physically. When do you say I've had enough? Sometimes I feel like I'm giving up on people and relationships, like I should be putting in more work. Why? Don't I…